156 148 Irreplaceable happiness





 As soon as I heard those words, I was struck by the illusion that all the sounds in the world had disappeared.
 I can't smell anything and my vision only shows his face, which I feel is faintly red.
 It's doubtful that he can breathe properly, and his feet are unconscious as if they are floating in the air.

 That's how astonished I was at the proposal that came out of her mouth.

 ─ Why, when, where, why and what...!

 My thoughts are supposed to be clearer than ever before, but doubts and confusion keep popping up and disappearing as if they were clawing their way through my head.
 My heart is pulsing as if it's about to burst, and my whole body is so hot that I think it's boiling... I don't know why anymore!

Bad.
"Huh?

 Perhaps noticing my completely stiffened state, Wa-san suddenly bowed her head and uttered an apology.
 I responded without being able to collect my thoughts, but my voice sounded inexplicably dumb. 

 However, he looked up and his expression was serious....

I wanted to tell you how I feel, so I haven't been able to prepare a ring yet. To begin with, I don't know the size of Amari's finger, so it's difficult to prepare it right away anyway...
'Hey, wait a minute! I'm ignoring so many processes already that I can't keep up with my understanding! Let me calm down and sort it out for once!

 For some reason, he came spouting off even more convoluted statements.

 I'm over capacity any longer!
 By grabbing both of Wa's shoulders to stop him before his heart reaches its limit, I manage to give him time to cool down.

 I calm down the fire in my body and mind and turn my gaze to him again.

''I mean, why is it that we're going through a confession, keke, marriage.......?''
Because that's how serious I am.
Ugh....

 Why does this person say such embarrassing things so plainly...! 
 I hold my breath and hold it down as my heart, which I thought had finally calmed down, feels like it's about to rage again.

''Duh, roughly........when did you start to like me, well.......you know.... You haven't shown any pretense of that before, have you?

 Yes.
 Although I have received trust from Ms. Wa, I have never had a glimpse of romantic feelings.
 Despite that, it's too sudden to suddenly.......like me enough to propose to me.

 It's not that I don't believe it, but the truth is that my confusion is greater than the joy of having both feelings.

It didn't make sense to me at first.

 Does that advice lead to what he said about where he really wants to spend his time?
 But I don't see the connection between that and the way he likes me.

 But what he continued to say convinced me that he was right.

"So I've changed my mind. It's not about where you want to live, it's about who you want to live with, isn't it? Then.......................Amari and Amana came out.
I...
I was surprised at first. But now that I've actually lived here, I'm convinced that I'm convinced, too. I kept thinking about why I was convinced and then I realized I was attracted to Amari.

 Wa-san's face as he smiled with embarrassment made me feel a joy that I can't describe in words.
 It's nothing short of a miracle that the life together with him, which I had proposed because I couldn't bear to see him break down due to fatigue, had taken root as a place to live.

''I'm really an idiot for not realizing it even though Sanaya and Mao told me about it to Kuroone-I'm really an idiot. So, well I only became aware of it just a while ago, so I don't know a definite time frame. Sorry it's not an answer.
No but that would be even better with a confession... why propose?

 To be honest, I don't know what attracted me to her either, so I guess that's the way it is for both of us.
 We'll come back to the first question, but Kaz-san looked away shyly as she answered, "I'm not sure why I went through with the proposal.

"The only reason I was able to go through with the proposal was because of Amana-chan.
Tenna...?
'Ah. I would have gone out with you if I only liked Amari, but I love my life right now with Amari and Amana-chan, I can't stand it. I thought that in order to make that absolutely possible, we'd have to get married...
Oh, I see...

 That is how much of an impact this life has had on Wa-san.
 I can understand that feeling very well.
 If it were not for Tenna, I would not have met Kazu. 

 When I think about it, it made me realize how important she was to us.
 The fact that the child Yuna and Tatsune-san left behind would go around and lead to the happiness of Kazu and me is stranger than a novel.

''And so........Nantenashi-san.
Yes!

 As I'm deeply moved by the miracle that Tenna spun, I reflexively look at him when Wa-san calls me by my full name. 

''I........can't be happy for the rest of my life if the two of us aren't together. I want to make the people I care about happier than I feel........ So will you marry me and become a family....?
I...

 When he proposed to me again, I felt a burning heat in my heart.
 A feeling of happiness, which seems to be the best I've ever felt, incomparable to the confusion I felt earlier, strengthens my whole body.

 I feel like my body is on fire right now, and my throat is parched with embarrassment and nervousness.
 It can't be helped because there's no way I can predict that my first love is about to come to fruition in this way.

 Roughly..........Wa-san.......

─ ─ You're an idiot.
....
'Why do you think I make lunches every day? Do you think he invited you to an amusement park you don't like and suggested you live here just out of the goodness of his heart? I was actually terribly embarrassed about the knee pillow, you know?

 Arikuma-san, Sakai-san, Kuroone-san, and Mayuzumi-san have no idea how much your insensitivity has bothered them.
 And yet, they were so stupid that they couldn't understand your reply.

 I grabbed such a foolish Kazu by both shoulders, looked him in the eye and said, "........

I'm happy, is that why?
...Yeah, that's right. They're all ...







 I'm happy because I like your work and I like them. Wa-san.....
I...

 

 My first kiss is unbearably happy and addictive, the happiness that floods from deep within my chest.
 Each second feels so long, and I want it to be engraved in my memory, even if it is just a little bit, I want it to be engraved, so that I am a part of my brain........

 Eventually our lips naturally part.
 But slowly, as if to show my regret.

 The love of my life right under my nose didn't expect to get a reply of approval, and I'm stunned with my eyes wide open.
 I was surprised by the sudden proposal over here, so I couldn't help but smile a little bit as I was able to return the favor.

 Did he expect to be rejected?
 Apparently, the place of low self-esteem is still the same.

 Therefore, let me tell you clearly that it's not a misunderstanding.

"──I'm a tramp, but thank you for your time.

 He gave me a very happy smile in return, with relief.