155 147 Things I found





 The next day ... Saturday morning.
 I slept better than I thought I would yesterday.

 I even felt like I had a rather good dream.

 However, as soon as I woke up, I was snuggled up with Kazu-san in a way that didn't put a burden on Tenna, but I managed to avoid raising my voice.

 That was very heartbreaking........

 Then I prepared breakfast as usual and had them both eat it........

'........Well, I'm off.
Okay, have a good day, have a safe trip.
Bye, honey....

 With a somewhat gloomy look on her face, Kaz-san went out for the final preview of her new house search.
 Both Tenna and I watch him off, using reason to keep his body from being held back.
 For a moment it looks like he has a look of reluctance in his eyes, but the details are unclear as he immediately went out the door.

 In the midst of completing the morning's chores, I can't get the lonely aspect of my future life out of my mind, and I can't seem to concentrate.
 The same may be true for Tenna, who usually plays with coloring books and the like, but she doesn't speak, just absentmindedly devoting her attention to her thoughts.

 Even so, time went by without choice, and when we finished lunch, it was time for Tenna to go out.
 I told her that she was originally planning to play with Nishiyama-san and the others and that she didn't have to go if she wasn't feeling well, but Tenna mended her smile and went away because she promised.

 Perhaps she is trying to disguise her sinking feeling by playing with her friends.
 If she's trying to separate herself in her own way, I can't interrupt her........

''.............Huh.

 I exhale as I sit down on the couch after my afternoon chores have been completed.
 It's Saturday, so I'm off work, and it's been a long time since I've had any alone time without Kazu or Tenna.

 Normally I would be able to let go and settle down, but a sense of loneliness is swirling in my chest.

 I realized how much I am supported by Tenna and Kazu's presence.
 Is it because I've been insisting that I can't show any weakness in front of them for so long...?

 In any case, today, Wa should be able to decide on a new house.
 She'll probably move there by the end of this year, and I'd like to think that she'll be able to cut loose until then, but.......

"──I don't want to leave........

 A sense of loneliness smoldered loudly in my chest.
 It seems that not only Tenna, but I have become selfish as well.

''Wa-san........''

 Even muttering his name doesn't stop my heart from racing.

 It's not like Yuna (Yuna) who was enjoying her love life.
 When that girl fell in love with Tatsuhito-san, she asked me for love advice many times.
 At that time, I can clearly remember how cheerful she seemed to be.

 Looking back, I guess I was jealous of the fact that she was in love with someone who was just like her.
 If the two of them had survived the accident and Tenna and I had spent time separately....

 Would I have fallen in love with Kazu........?

From my point of view, I'm a lot more comfortable now than I am with that bullshit.
"──Really, really........Kazu-san is a cheater........

 It was like I was nervous because I was alone.
 I felt like I was being bitterly told not to devote my thoughts to things I shouldn't be thinking about when I'm not supposed to be around.

 That's right.
 Nothing is going to move far away, so why not just strengthen our approach so that we can be together in the future?

 I picked up my crushed mind and while I was trying to come up with a menu for dinner, I heard the front door open.
 Looking at the time, it's past 3pm... I'm reminded that time flies when you're thinking.
 Regardless of such a personal mental image, I went to the front door to greet the person who came back.

"Ah, Wa-san. Welcome back.
I'm home....

 It was Kaz-san who came back from a house inspection to look for a new house.
 The look in her eyes was a complete change from this morning, and I guessed that she had finally decided on a new house.

 Pushing down the pain in my chest, I greet her with a fake smile on my face so that she can move in without any worries.

I'm glad to hear that you've decided on a new house. Shall we have a feast tonight to commemorate the occasion?
No that won't be necessary.
No, no, I'm not afraid to make you something to eat, if you want.
That's why there's no commemoration... we can't just stop looking for a new place to live.
...what?

 I roll my eyes and let out a dumbfounded voice at the unexpected reply.
 I swallow the words with a delayed return to normalcy in my thoughts and mouth the answer I came up with.

''Well, does that mean I'm going to have to start searching again from scratch...?''
No. I'm a clean slate.
What do you mean by that?

 I finally couldn't hide my bewilderment at the statement that blithely dismissed all the effort I had put in so far, and I asked for details.
 A blank piece of paper after all that worrying...?
 I don't understand........

It's true that the two hotels we visited today were nice rooms, but I just wasn't satisfied with them. Well, of course. I had to keep looking away from the place where I was in the right place.

 Unlike me, who was in a panic, Kaz-san told us the story with a face that didn't show much regret.
 Her narrative was light and cheerful as if a possession had fallen from her, and I even felt that she was somehow cheerful.
 What in the world has happened since this morning until now?

 With such doubts floating in my mind, Wa-san continues with a soft smile.

'So I looked at it properly and looked at it... and finally I found it. What is happiness for me?
Happiness for Kazu-san?

 I can't seem to grasp what I want to say, and I'm just confused.
 To me, Wa-san took a deep breath and then came to stare straight at me.

 My heart beats impotently as she stares into my black eyes, which I've seen countless times since we met.
 While his thoughts were blank with nervousness and he couldn't seem to think of anything, he slowly opened his mouth.......

''──Amari.















──Will you marry me........?

 I just came to tell him that seriously.