-What am I doing?

　After my date with Kazu at the outlet mall, I feel a belated pang of regret as I calm down.
　As I walked through the streets alone, enveloped in the moist, tropical night air, I could only let out a great sigh.

　Surely I stepped aside for Kazu-kun's sake?
　But now that I'm on my own, I'm wondering if I couldn't have persisted longer.

　It's pathetic........I thought I'd be dragged along miserably even if my heart was broken, and now I'm left with this.......

　As I'm hating myself, a young couple walks past me from the front.
　I don't know if they only see each other, but they completely ignore my presence.

　I have mixed feelings of envy and depression.
　Those unfulfilled feelings come out again in a sigh.

　I really don't know what I'm doing....

I want to drink........I want to get drunk and forget all the bad things.......

　I'm too pathetic to talk about escaping reality, giving myself over to alcohol.
　That makes me feel even more miserable and I sigh for the fifth time in total.

　Then......

If you want a drink, I'll show you a good place to go, okay?
"...what do you want?　Sannya-kun.
"Don't be so boring! I'll buy you a drink!

　Miya, dressed in a rough-looking outfit that looks like he's done with his work, invited me to join him in a ridiculous tone of voice.
　The insensitive attitude is irritating, even though I'm not at peace with my broken heart.
　I turn my glaring jito eyes at him, but he only pretends to be coy and it's not working.

　But I thought I might be able to restrain myself if I went home and stayed with someone instead of drinking alone, so I reluctantly accept the invitation.

　In the tavern I arrived at shortly after, I went out of my way to enter a private room, perhaps to avoid having others overhear my conversation.
　He's very attentive in spite of his looks and words and actions....

　If I usually put that side of me in front of you, I would have had one of my lovers by now, right?
　With that in mind, Sanya-kun opened his mouth just as the other's beer arrived.

'Then, kanpai~'
....

　When I hit the glass mug with the beer in it, a high-pitched sound could be heard.
　I'm not a fan of this kind of thing.

''So?　Did you cocky with Kazu?
What?

　It was easy to stop me with a surprise question.
　Or rather, I gushed........even though it was right after I drank it all up so I didn't have to stain the table and snacks.

　Nevertheless, I glare at Miya-kun who is grinning in front of me.

''Keho.......how long have you known?''

It's hardly the first time!

　I knew I had a keen intuition, but I didn't think it was obvious from the beginning.

　Hmm?
　Wait a minute?
　Isn't that strange?

''Well why were you messing with me in a weird way when you knew how I felt?''
What?　Are you going to ask such an obvious question~?
I won't make fun of it. When I was talking to Kazu-kun alone, he interrupted me as if he was aiming for me, in front of me and asking me about my progress with Tenashi-san, and today, Kazu-kun blurted out the things he liked... what do you think you're doing?

　While holding back my hand from getting angry huffing and puffing, I list all the things that Sanya-kun has done so far.
　I listed them myself, but why didn't I set up the approach sooner?

　Such self-loathing passed through my brain, but I shook my head to pay it off, saying it was past time.

　Anyway, Miya doesn't seem to be following up on my love life.

　But even so, Sanya kept up his good mood and took a bite of yakitori.
　After chewing it, a really annoyed look appeared on his face and.....




Because I like Mao-chan.
What?

　What are you talking about?

　My mind goes blank at the reply that was only a thought.
　I like.........?
　Sannya, you sent me?

　You're not going to be able to see it.

'But you like Japanese style, don't you, Mao?　Then why wait until you get your heart broken?
....
I'd have given up on the idea of a relationship, but there's no sign of it.　And then you'll be able to get along with people who aren't in harmony with you.　So we've got to go for this one, right?
'You didn't ask for my consent earlier!　Soooo, how do you expect me, the very person I love, to reciprocate!

　It's uselessly annoying and hard to answer!

'Then what!　You've been hiding your feelings all this time, betting on the possibility of me getting my heart broken!
'Yes!　I'm so single-minded, aren't I?
I'll knock you down!

　That's a lot of space for a guy who just confessed!
　He gave me a smug look with a wink while using his hands as a pistol shape, and I'm pissed!

　I don't know if I should be dumbfounded or angry anymore, I don't know why....
　Regardless of whether or not I receive a confession that's too light, there's something I've learned after talking to Miya-kun.　

''The person who had the most delicious feeling about this case is Miya-kun........''
In a sense, Kazu was my rival, but he's an ordinary guy, so it's not surprising that Mao-chan fell for him. That's why it's bad dreaming if the two of you stay on edge, so if you make up with each other, hooray, and if you get your heart broken, hooray.
'Huh ... well, I'll just say thank you for making up with me and I'm glad I didn't have to deal with the unpleasantness.
You're welcome.

　Deciding that it's not a good idea to deal with him properly, I tell him so only in passing.
　My heartbreak to Kazu-kun alone is enough to fill me up, but the confession from Miya-kun has completely overwhelmed me.
　That's not a good amount of information to happen in a day........

''Nah, Mao-chan.

　I put my hand on my forehead and sigh, and Sanya-kun comes calling to me.
　When I turn around to see what it is, I see that he has a serious expression on his face that I haven't seen before.

''You can answer me when you're in love with me!
...you're too quick. Stupid.

　Eventually I had to poison myself with that.
　I had a feeling that maybe I had no luck with men.....