103-Quiet Third Princess Leila Looking up at the sky




 
Are you looking up at the sky again?

Yes.

 Sarya asked curiously as I looked out the window in my bedroom.

 This is one of my favorite places to enjoy the outside world close to me, even though I'm crippled.

 When I open the window, a cool breeze lets in the sounds of people's lives and happy conversations.

 I can't see the people from here, but I can see the faces of people walking down the main street if I strengthen my magic power in my eyes.

 However. It's not a good thing to see a man who is doing heavy work sometimes, because when you see him walking around with his upper body exposed, it makes you feel embarrassed.

 In a place with so many people, he's dressed like that.... Doesn't everyone feel ashamed? I can't look at it very directly.

 I can feel my face getting hot just looking at it.

 I don't want to be able to see too much.

 I can't walk around freely for reasons of status and physicality, so this is how I get in touch with the outside world.

 Even though I know in my head that this is impossible in real life, I can't stop myself from wanting to walk around the city as freely as the people who live in King's Landing.

 What would the world be like outside of this large royal castle? 

 The sea, where this thing called seawater extends to the horizon. Mountains bigger than the castle of Misfirito where I live. Plains that spread out like a green carpet. Deserts, villages, demons and animals - there is so much in this world that I have never known.

 I want to see it with my own eyes, feel it with my own skin, enjoy it with my ears and taste it with my tongue.

 I want to know more and more.

 For several years now, I have been trying to find out more and more about the world. I have been trying my best to keep these thoughts to myself, but recently I have come to feel them strongly.

 It was a scene three weeks ago that I'll never forget.

 Those two boys were walking freely in the sky and frolicking around.

 I couldn't get the image of those two boys, free and enjoying life to the fullest, out of my eyelids.

 Am I enjoying the moment compared to those two? Are you convinced? 

 There are many days when I think about that.

'Do you see the two boys?'

No, I don't see him.

 Today, the sky in King's Landing is clear and cloudless, and there is not even a single cloud in sight of the two boys.

 It's as if they were looking at the wrong person.

''Are you sure you didn't see it wrong?''

'No, I didn't see it wrong. I definitely saw it with my own eyes!

 Sarya is teasing me, and I answer her categorically.

 It's not a mistake in my eyes, but she's telling me that I'm looking at the wrong person.

 Since that day, I've been looking up at the sky every day and I still haven't seen the two boys, but it's not a mistake of vision.

 But it's not a mistake of vision. I can tell you that much for sure.

So what were they like?

'One boy was a brown-haired boy with somewhat bad eyes, and the other ... I think he was a brown-haired boy with sleepy eyes.

The other one doesn't seem to be as confident...

 Why is that?

 They enhanced each other's eyes with magic and looked at each other, and they even waved at each other.

 And yet, the boy, who is probably a wizard, was not very impressive.

  I think he had an ordinary look that would have been buried if there were many others.

''I thought for sure you would claim to be a beautiful blond-haired, blue-eyed boy like the one in the story...''

I'm not that kind of person.

 I turn my face away from Sarya, who smiles somewhat like a bully, to sulk.

 It's true that I tend to read a lot of books due to the fact that I'm physically disabled and tend to stay in the castle, but it's not clouded with reality. ........maybe.

''Yes, I suppose so. Leila is rather fond of beautiful boys with brown hair, isn't she? ''On the Night of the Full Moon'', a princess in a certain kingdom meets a commoner man one day, falls in love with him, and because of the difference in status, they elope on the night of the full moon--''

'Kyaaaahhhhhh! How come Sarya has it? I put a book cover on the history of the Misfirito Kingdom and kept it out of sight!

 I flip the wheelchair around to retrieve the love story Sarya is holding in her hand.

 Then I roll the tire and reach for Sarya, but I can't reach her.

'Leila likes storytelling, but history books are used up so badly, you know? You'll find out soon enough.

 Sarya laughs a funny smile.

 Crap! If only I could stand, I could easily get it back! I hate these feet that don't move, and I hate them to my heart's content!

'Give it back, please! Sarya!

'I'll read it back to you when I've read it.

 Sarya, who smiles softly, looks like a demon today.

''.........But Leila, you're longing for this kind of thing, aren't you? Ufufu, I can't help but understand that feeling, though........

 Sarya flips through the pages and says something like that to me.

 It's embarrassing! I can see in full that this is my desire from not being able to leave the castle.

 I just want to jump out of here already!

 I blush and turn over in shame, and Sarya whispers in my ear to catch up with me.

''I hope that someday I'll find a nice man to take me out of here.

Shit! Sarya!

You're so cute and blushing.

'Get ready for a cup of tea! Here, please hurry up and put the book away!

Okay.