209 That's why I'm not good at listening.




 Wolfe seemed to have sorted out his feelings and cheerfully left the room. She went to Gladna to try to do what she could to help. Normally, it was a delusion that Wolfe himself would take time to cool down, but when he started to act as a price for himself, he had no choice but to intervene.

It's a matter of personal freedom after all.

 That's why the knights in this country are fighting for their country and people, risking their lives. In the case of Wolfe, it is only directed at one individual. In the end, it's just a matter of convincing him to do what's best for his own ego.

"So, if you're here, why don't you come out?

 To be honest, I don't know who's out there. To be honest, I don't know who's there. I don't even know if they're there in the first place, but if I keep muttering these lines, I can notice if someone is there.

"...... How long have you been aware of this?

 Oh, there's the Iliad. If you're asking how long it's been, I'd say now, but let's choose our words well so as not to spoil the mood.

"Now that I'm alone with Wolfe. I'm sure that Ilias will think that I'll tell him something about what happened at the Blue Demon King's castle.
...... Sometimes I'm not sure how much control I have over them.

 You don't understand the other person 100% of the time. You are only making them feel that you understand a few percent more through your actions and behaviors. You can manage the differences to a certain extent by deceiving them as your personality. Of course, once you get into the pattern, you can make it your own from there.

You look complicated. Are you surprised that Wolfe is more mature than you thought?
Well, yeah. No, I was shocked that people thought he was a brainiac, but I had a feeling that he was. ......
Well, when your master says it all the time, you can get the same impression.
And the Ex-Doctor's outfit?
No, it's just me.

 I'm a child, and I've never forgotten it. You can't force people to understand that. That being said, Ilias's expression seems to indicate that he's aware of me. This reaction suggests that there is something bothering him.

"It's ....... .......
You don't have to try to get it out of him, you know. I've never asked the Iliad for vocabulary.
That's not very nice advice. But yes, there's something I want to make sure of. You were captured by Archbishop Cellaes and tortured to force you to change your mind. Duvraeus told me that you did something to your torturer to break it up.
First person narrative?
...... Yeah. Even I can tell you've been on the other side. Did you come back on your own?

 Normally, I would have looked into the eyes of purists like Ilias and Wulfe and positioned myself on the 'me' side. In fact, he had switched to the 'me' side when he started to plan to run into the Scarlet Demon King's cave, and the people he encountered after that could hardly be considered pure. I wonder if Iliad is concerned about that.

"Do you miss your role?
"No, that's not what I mean!
I'm kidding. To be honest, I can't move to the 'me' side of things.
What do you mean by that?
The reason for switching the first person in the first place is a kind of suggestion to change your position. In the Iliad, when you act more good, you act more evil, and you don't have to resist each of them.
I think I have a good sense of that.

 I've known the Iliad for a long time now. I've known Iliad long enough to know that he'll understand if I show him the transition over and over again.

In the case of me, the mental change caused by the switch is strong. That's why I'm not afraid to do something awful. ...... But this time, I was too reckless. In the case of the Scarlet Demon King, he did a suicide mission, and in the case of Archbishop Serraes, he was even willing to die himself. I'm sure you've been through a lot.
I'm sure you'll be happy to hear that.
"I actually feel like a stranger. I remember it, but I don't really feel it. I'm trying to make it so.
...... How is that possible?
"The Iliad doesn't hesitate when it cuts down a sinner. I'm just making sure it doesn't come back to haunt me.
I don't know if you get it. ......
I'm a coward by nature, I'm not mentally strong. I'm not mentally strong. I'm too hesitant to lay a hand on a sinner. But there comes a time when you have to. That's why when I switch first person, I try not to take on the feeling or guilt that I did at that time. ......".

 In the end, these self-protective measures are adjusted so that the evil "I" does not carry over the mental load when it becomes "I". In terms of the strength of self-suggestion, the state of "I" is undoubtedly superior to that of "me.

"The fact that you can't move means that ......
"It must have been such a strong memory. It must have been such a powerful memory that if I remembered it properly, I would have to stay in my room and shiver for the rest of my life. That's why the 'I' was so strongly separated from the 'I'.

 There have been times when I have done evil things in Japan. When the means were so terrible, I was temporarily unable to switch personalities as much as I wanted to. As long as the memories are retained, frequent switching may lead to the realization. I suppose you are concerned about that, and you are trying to save your mind. He is really a stranger.



Does that mean we'll be forced to operate in our current state for a while?
I hope it's for a while, ...... because this is the first time I've ever been assaulted to the point of disfigurement.

 I'm not sure what to make of this. In the event that you have any questions concerning where and how to use the internet, you can contact us at our own web site. It would have been better if I had simply separated myself from them out of concern for me, but both of us must be weak people. Worst of all, it's possible that the "me" side's heart died or something. ...... I'm a troublesome person.

I'm relieved that you're not in that state. But that's what worries me.
"Even though you have a twisted personality, you've always been aware of the Iliad. Well, he's bad enough to break his promise to the Iliad.
...... Let's not dwell on that too much. But that's not like you. You used to say they were both you. The way you say it now, it's like you're a different person.
"That's true, of course. I'm a little confused because the distance between us is getting too big.

 We used to be like neighbors, but now we can't even feel our presence. The existence of a person who is not a double personality has become such that it might be a double personality. I would like to thank and apologize for that.

I'd like to thank you and apologize.
"I'm grateful not to hear it, but 'I' am 'I'. From an individual standpoint, I'm obligated to listen.
You sound like you want to be petty.
I am who I am. I don't want to be the one to deny that.
...... I can sense that you're trying to cut down on the amount of nitpicking.

 I'm not going to deny it. It's a good idea to take a look at the website and see if there's anything you can do to help. But that doesn't mean I want to listen to them complain endlessly.

It's the Iliad, and I can sense that you're trying to cut down on the nitpicking because you feel you owe it to yourself to do so.
...... It's true that I couldn't protect you. It's a good idea to have a good idea of what you're looking for. Seeing you in such a state of hubris, it's tempting to take a hit. The fact that you went to the Scarlet Witch King alone makes me think that you've given up on me as useless.

 In terms of pure specs, Ilias and Wulfe are probably the strongest of all humans except for the Dark Lord. But they were defeated by the Scarlet Witch King, with Kara buying the most time, and Lord Ragdoll, Gladna, and Mix taking the credit for taking his right arm.

"You're still too young to be the strongest. You're just lucky it didn't turn out to be an irreversible disaster.
"That's not a comforting thought, is it?
You've made up your mind in the Iliad, haven't you? You've made up your mind, haven't you?
"...... Mmm.

 Ilias, who has an unconvincing look on his face. I'm sure you're thinking, "This is very different from the time of Wolfe.

You'll be able to get a lot more than just a pair of shoes. It also doesn't change the fact that Wolfe is the prettiest.
"Hey, don't fold .......
I've got one more candy for you. I think you're the best buddy to have on your back, Ilias.
...... I see. That's good enough for me right now.

 Ilias has recovered on his own, but that doesn't mean you don't have to say anything to him. If he's motivated, it's your role as his partner to give him a push.

All right, that's enough to take care of the two of you mentally.
"Wait a minute, is that what you just said?
I'm sure you meant what you said. Or what, should I just praise him with all my might to the point that the Iliad wants to blush? If you're willing to put too much effort into your daily routine, I can accommodate your wishes.
"...... No, no, this is about right. You're right. I'd be less uptight if you were moderately mischievous. But can't you come up with something better?

 I'm glad you're back to your normal self. Serious faces are exhausting. This is the best way.

You can at least give him a hug, like you did with Wolfe. But I think there's someone who might be listening in.
"What?

 When Ilias looked towards the door, he heard someone running away with a rattling sound. You're really here.

Oh, Mixu, please don't run off by yourself!

 It seemed that Lakra and Mixu were there. For the time being, I'll let Lacla talk to the blushing Ilias. Well, Ilias was also eavesdropping on someone's conversation, so he's not in a position to say anything about others.